"What Have I Done?"

I'm sure you've heard of the Christian artist Jeremy Camp. I didn't realize until the other day that his wife, Adie, also sings. She sings the song, "What Have I Done?" I had heard it before, but didn't know she is one who sings it until just this last week. Here's the opening verses of the song...

"What have I done Lord Jesus to deserve your endless love,
What have I done Lord Jesus to be worthy of your grace,
What have I done Lord Jesus to be standing here with you,
What have I done Lord Jesus to be worthy of you..."

As I was driving home one day, this song came on and not that I've never entertained this thought before, but I suddenly realized that I have done ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to deserve the endless love and grace that only Jesus offers. It's amazing, isn't it? To think that the God of this universe sent the only child he had...for me, and for you. Wow, if that doesn't drive you to tears, then I don't know what will.

Sometimes, it's easy to want to throw ourselves a party...as my husband calls it, it's called a big "Pity Party". Well, last week, on this particular day, I really wanted to host my own pity party...of course, I would've been the guest of honor. This song came on and it was as if God was saying to me, "C'mon Jenn, snap out of it! Yes, times are tough for you right now, but really, it will all be okay because I am here for YOU. No, you didn't do anything to deserve my love, but I am giving it to you simply because I want to. You are my child and I care for you."

Well, that was like a big spankin' for me! Maybe I deserved it. A little discipline now and then is good, right? I sure haven't done anything to deserve Jesus' endless love and grace, and I definitely have done everything to not deserve it! He provides it anyway. And I am thankful...